Re: My Birthday reflections...

[Rick Parkany <rparkany@borg.com>]

Why! ThanQ, Art:	I'll be in Albany tomorrow for a few meetings, will miss my family, and will print
and carry this with m as a talisman of support...

...and, upon your prior recommendations, I WILL keep to my medication schedules...ALL of them, my
stultified stoggy! (...really, upon second thought, *dolt* was defintely NOT a proper choice of
words, Folks--sorry...)	;-} rap.

Art Burke wrote:
> 
> I wish you happy birthday!  Art
> 
> >>> rparkany@borg.com 01/15/03 03:42AM >>>
> Good morning, Folks! my Birthday eve is tonight.
> 
> My friend and soulmate, Marty, sent me a B'day greeting this morning.
> She's been an advocate of my
> so-called *career* my whole life. She was there when I left the USNA @
> the height of the Vietnam
> War, when my father took three years to speak w/me. She was there when
> I was arrested and thrown out
> of school two weeks before Kent State a year and a half later for
> demonstrating during the Cambodian
> invasion. She was there for me each time no one else was--and when they
> were. She has shadowed my
> life and supplemented what I chose for myself of it.
> 
> I am weary of this effort, I wish I could give it up! I pray that my
> intentions are noble, but
> suspect att imes I've been mislead by mean-spirits within me that are
> viable (com)possibilities
> maneuvering and negotiating for ascendancy and to surface as spokesmen
> for my soul.
> 
> I consider Nietzsche to have been a quietist compared to the torments I
> suffer, at times, Alan
> Young; but I awoke this morning to your posts and resolved to finish
> some writing today.
> 
> Should I thank you for this motivation, my friend--or curse you along
> with myself for the listening
> you compelled?  ;-} rap.
> 
> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
> Subject: Re: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
> Date: Wed, 15 Jan 2003 05:58:53 -0500
> 
> Thank you so much, for (re)membering me, Marty!
> 
> I have been a bit *low*, lately...mostly career issues running against
> the advocacy and moral,
> ameliorative stuff that has distracted my energies since leaving USNA.
> 
> Ollie North ('gave me the only demerits I received Plebe Year: 15 for
> having
> mud on my boots giving blood for the war effort before noon meal on a
> Saturday morning) is making
> millions on the talk-show circuit, his mentor, John Poindexter is
> resurrected into the Database
> of Babel way deep in the bowels of the DoD, and I am still looking for
> work (again) and writing my
> dissertation, competing for *jobs* I had a better shot at while at
> Tulane, 30 years ago!
> 
> Sometimes I wonder if I've taken on too much in this short, sweet life.
> Leibnitz claimed that we
> live in the best of all (com)possible worlds. I concur at the
> metaphysical section of this
> argument--for all my life, I have been a pessimistic optimist,
> accordingly. But, ...
> 
> ...I have lately come to wonder if much of my struggle, my angst and
> longings have been directed
> in some sort of misaligned perception and poorly insulated
> consciousness at those proto-realities,
> those (com)possible alternatives to *what actually happens* that never
> make it into full
> presence--sort of like those fleeting sub-atomic particles that we can
> cause, with great energy
> and control, to momentarily shimmer into existence before dying away
> into the mere possibilities
> that they were intended to be.
> 
> My family has suffered for all this, yet support me w/o wavering--I cry
> and burst into gushing
> tears often when my hand leaves the tiller, and my realities shimmer
> frequently, as though they
> are more intended for mere melancholic contemplation & reflection--not
> the action that I demand
> of them.
> 
> Thank you for this remembrance, Marty; best of th' New Year to you &
> yours, as well...  ;-} rap.
> 
> Clarkmarty@aol.com wrote:
> >
> > Hope you're not too busy to do something reckless or self-indulgent
> > to celebrate.
> >
> > Am sending this a little early because we leave at dawn tomorrow for
> > a week in the Bay area with hubby's kids.  Andrew just bought a home
> > in Palo Alto, his first, and Jennifer flew in today on semester
> break
> > from teaching at UMass.  Needless to say, Marc is pretty excited.
> >
> > Hope you're well!   Hugs,  Marty
> 
> --
> "Dein Wachstum sei feste und lache vor Lust!
> Deines Herzens Trefflichkeit
> Hat dir selbst das Feld bereit',
> Auf dem du bluehen musst." JS Bach: Bauern Kantata
> Richard A. Parkany: SUNY@Albany
> Prometheus Educational Services
> http://www.borg.com/~rparkany/
> Upper Hudson & Mohawk Valleys; New York State, USA
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-- 
"Dein Wachstum sei feste und lache vor Lust! 
Deines Herzens Trefflichkeit
Hat dir selbst das Feld bereit', 
Auf dem du bluehen musst." JS Bach: Bauern Kantata
Richard A. Parkany: SUNY@Albany 
Prometheus Educational Services
http://www.borg.com/~rparkany/ 
Upper Hudson & Mohawk Valleys; New York State, USA